The Notebook 😍
Sagittarius and the inner you.
It’s been a while..or not really considering I wrote to you last day in the hospital. Anyways I feel really pissed off today and I know I shouldn’t cause I should be recovering *happily* but I do. I’ve been thinking a lot about what I spoke with my therapist about..you know feeling good about myself and all and I realized a few things.
1) I let some people treat me like crap. Seriously. Specially mymom.
2) I think some people use me..or it feels that way cause they abandon me or it seems like they have. *mumbles some*
3) I’m not really myself around many people anymore. Like I don’t feel comfortable like I used to.
*pouts at that list* …I should probably work on those you know. Not let my mother get to me like she *still* does, be myself more and that. You know?I’ll probably have an AWKWARD discussion with my therapist about it, which would probably be better than talking about other things anyways.
I really want to get my life back together and properly this time. I even got a tattoo, it’s pretty cool. Just wish some things didn’t have to happen..or people didn’t have to do things to hurt you and make you feel like you’re nothing cause eventually they brain wash you and then your thoughts eat you away.
But I’m going to carry on being a strong fighter. I promise. I have to. I cant let those monsters win. I think I can almost see them raise a white flag, just a bit more further. I’m sure of it.
Still miss you, Ness.
*mumbles about things*
Dance for life<3
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